Goodbye Silas...

Back at the beginning of March, our good friends Steve and Anetha Kashuba (Evan's parents) invited us to join them on a Hawaii vacation in early May. A vacation of with just the 4 of us- no babies! Steve's aunt had given them a Time Share to use to cover accomodations and by flying down on Aeromiles, Josh and I knew we would likely never have another chance to travel to Hawaii so cheaply. Also having just survived readjusting Silas to life in Canada, we were feeling quite ready for a break (and yes, feeling like we even might have deserved one!) With Grandma Doris generously agreeing to babysit Silas while we were away, we excitedly planned our 6 day getaway.



But sigh, the day has arrived for us to leave our little boy! Silas has gotten to be so much fun in the past month and with cries that are much easier to understand and now that he totally sleeps through the night and naps well, he's a real joy to be around! Could you leave a kid who gets such a kick out of hanging in his dad's truck?

It is very hard to leave him this morning. For the past week, everytime he smiles or giggles with us, I feel a pang of guilt. We knew we were about to hit him with a huge bulldozer of a change to life as he knows it, but he has been completely oblivious. We had to sneak out early this morning before he awoke to catch our plane and my heart aches to think how he will cry when neither Josh nor I are there to greet him at 6:30am. Let's hope his excitement at getting to see Grandma Doris so early in the day, wins out. I hate to think of him searching the rooms in our house for us. (Grandma Doris, you are taking on so much for us- thank you, thank you again.)




Little Silas, we love you endlessly and will miss you constantly. But you have already grown up so fast and we are pretty sure that you are ready for this step on the journey toward independence (sob, sob). You love your Opa and Grandma Doris and all the visitors who come our way, we know they will all take such loving care of you. We pray that, as people say, this time apart will be harder on us than you and that it will help us to be better, more rested and rejuvenated parents. We will feel lost without you (can we really go into a room without babyproofing it?) but we promise we'll be hugging and kissing and tickling you again soon. Bye, bye little one.

PS- Please do not take your first steps while we are away!